You can illustrate your life in r♥mance...

friends only

2006-01-20T23:25:48Z

Wow!!!!

2006-01-20T22:29:49Z

Well here's an update. Right now im sitting at the computer while Vanessa plays with my puppy!!!!!! We're being dorks, but whatelse is new. Lalalalalalalalalalalalala!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

If looks could kill you'd be a murderer,
maybe just a whore, maybe you're a..
If looks could kill you'd be a murderer,
maybe just a whore..

maybe just a whore

If looks could kill you'd be a murderer,
maybe just a whore,
I promised so much more,
walking through that door became a chore,
if looks could kill,
if looks could kill.

I'm sorry for, I'm sorry for, I'm sorry for,
bleeding on your porch.
I know I know I know,
knew that it wasn't right,
but of course I tried
to keep my heart inside of my
chest but that fell through
that's why I'm here with her not you

If looks could kill you'd be a murderer,
maybe just a whore,
I promised so much more,
walking through that door became a chore,
(if looks could kill)
if looks could kill you'd be a murderer,
(if looks could kill)
maybe just a whore,
I promised so much more,
walking through that door became a chore.

It's a comfort to know
that you're watching them
go,
watch your living scream
you're name
is this what you wanted
is this what you needed
is this what you call our bleeding kids
take a run for me, leave them all alone
see their eyes when their love's so far from home
with a flick of the tongue
and the shake in the hips
and the look in your eye
and their ready to lose/and the red in your lips (not sure lol)

If looks could kill you'd be a murderer,
maybe just a whore,
I promised so much more,
walking through that door became a chore,
if looks could kill
if looks could kill
if looks could kill

I'm sorry for, I'm sorry for, I'm sorry for
bleeding on your porch
I know I know I know
knew that it wasn't right
but of course I tried
to keep my love inside of my
chest but that fell through
well that's why that's why I'm here with you
here with you

If looks could kill you'd be a murderer,
maybe just a whore

If looks could kill
if looks could, if looks could
you'd be a whore

If looks could kill you'd be a murderer,
maybe just a whore,
I promised so much more,
walking through that door became a chore,
if looks could kill
if looks could kill

If looks could kill you'd be a murderer,
maybe just a whore,
maybe I'm the
maybe I'm the murderer
maybe you're the whore

If looks could kill
if looks could, if looks could kill
you'd be a murderer
If looks could kill
you'd be a murderer

WOW!

2005-11-07T23:25:56Z

wow... i havent updated this thing in like a year... so here's what happened...

~Got through Freshman year...barely

~Had no social life...

~Had a sucky start to summer...

~Had surgery...made summer even better...

~started sophmore year...

and now...theres not much a difference from last year except more friends...

thats always nice...

Softly The Light Shines In Through
The Gates Of Grace On Me And You
Deceiving Our Restless Hearts
A Flickering Flame So Serene
Devours The Night So We Could See
The Fear We Hold On To So Strong

But I Know Where I Belong
Away From Your Gods
That Heal All Wounds And Light
This Endless Dark
Endless Dark
This Endless Dark

Lonely The Light Shines On You
Through The Gates Of Fire Entombed
Feeding On Your Love
Weak Is The Blaze That Kept Me Away
From Cruelty And Tenderness Embraced
Saving My Soul No More

Bored

2004-11-20T20:47:53Z

Wow...I haven't updated in like a month... School still sucks, but who wouldnt have guessed. Last night i went to the show at St.Joes it was okay... better for some than others {char}. Well since last time not much has happened, my moods have taken a drastic change to the sad and angry side. Oh yeah...Tegan and My theme for this period of time is I'M NOT O-FUCKING-KAY! lol. Anyway, my birthday is in 5 days...WOO HOO! I just randomly thought of this...Love is the Red, the Rose, on Your Coffin Door!

bored

2004-10-14T01:11:34Z

I havent updated in a while so i figured what the hell... nothing much has happened except i had a falling out with a few friends, but whatever! its all good. school boring as hell... sleepies through many classes! Well nothing much else to say besides i hope everything works out for everyone!

for_ever_cursed @ 2004-09-30T16:07:00

2004-09-30T20:10:51Z

It's nice to know that you are hated...

I KNOW I AM!!!

Even if I don't know why... if you do, please tell me!

pam

2004-09-27T21:02:07Z

Happy Birthday To Pam She Is Finally 14!!!

You know I find it funny how you can 'accidentally' forget to add someone on to something! Also the fact at how quick your emotions can change!

To Anyone Who Cares:

2004-09-26T03:20:41Z

If you know me... and are reading this I have a question for you...

WHY ARE YOU FRIENDS WITH ME WHEN KNOWING THE REAL ME HAS SOO MUCH BAGGAGE ATTACHED?

I am just curious please give me a good reason!

Lyrics... they kinda explain me

2004-09-24T19:20:52Z

Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don’t belong
And no one understands you

          Do you ever wanna run away?
          Do you lock yourself in your room?
          With the radio on turned up so loud
          That no one hears you screaming

No you don’t know what it’s like
When nothing feels alright
You don’t know what it’s like to be like me

          To be hurt
          To feel lost
          To be left out in the dark
          To be kicked
          When you’re down
          To feel like you’ve been pushed around
          To be on the edge of breaking down
          When no one’s there to save you
          No you don’t know what it’s like

Welcome to my life

          Do you wanna be somebody else?
          Are you sick of feeling so left out?
          Are you desperate to find something more
          Before your life is over

Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With the big fake smiles and stupid lies
But deep inside you’re bleeding

          No you don’t know what it’s like
          When nothing feels alright
          You don’t know what it’s like to be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked
When you’re down
To feel like you’ve been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
When no one’s there to save you
No you don’t know what it’s like

Welcome to my life

No one ever lies straight to your face
And no one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I’m happy
But I’m not gonna be ok

         Everybody always gave you what you wanted
         You never had to work it was always there
         You don’t know what it’s like
         What it’s like

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked
When you’re down
To feel like you’ve been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
When no one’s there to save you
No you don’t know what it’s like

Welcome to my life

This Song Is Great... It kinda Explains How I Feel... Most of the Time... I Do Have Good Days... Thanks To Those People Who Help Me Through

Im Bored out of my mind so I decided to update...I finally have a bus in the mroning! yay! School is good, but I'm bored all the time, which sucks! Well anyways nothing much else to say.

blah

2004-09-22T10:29:29Z

Well, I'm sitting at home... im supposed to be on the bus but both of the companys bidding at oakcrest decided to abandon our morning route! So, we either get driven to school or stay home. Anyways Im really sleepy and dont feel like going to school today or at all but i have to. Today me and my dad are taking tegan to school when she gets her ass over here.

Well since im bored let me tell you about this weekend! {i was at chars all weekend}

Friday- went to the mall, so she could see mike s.

Saturday- did the buddy walk, watched grind, and went to the mall again, saw ANGEL!! {me and char were bored so we counted how many people our age were at the mall that vanessa didnt do anything with, there was 5}

Sunday- we slept for over 16 hours then i went home on the computer

Tegan is a turtle skank!!! yay!!

TeganXcore: skankn turtle power! woot woot!

school

2004-09-09T20:40:32Z

SCHOOL IS BACK IN SESSION!!! It was confusing at first but it got easier... thank god i have sammi there to help me! I would be so lost without her there!

Anyways Ive been catching up with some of my old friends from mays landing! its been good! I hate school the only good thing is seeing my friends alot!

Friends

2004-09-05T04:12:01Z

There are two people that are very close to me... I consider them to be very very good friends!

Thank you for listening to me whine! Thank you for being there no matter what the circumstance! Thank you for listening to my stupid ideas! Thank you for letting me be myself around you! Thank you for bringing out the best in me like only best friends could! I hope you will always be there for me like you have so far! I don't know what I would do without you guys here to help me! It means the world to me! You can make me smile by saying the stupidest thing or just saying thank you when I do something nice! You make me feel like I am cared about when you stick up for me and tell me that no matter what happens you will be there!

Each friend represents a world in us, a world possibly not born until they arrive, and it is only by this meeting that a new world is born!
-Anais Nin

True friendship multiplies the good in life and divides its evils. Strive to have friends, for life without friends is like life on a desert island... to find one real friend in a lifetime is good fortune; to keep him is a blessing.
-Baltasar Gracian

It takes a lot of understanding, time and trust to gain a close friendship with someone. As I approach a time in my life of complete uncertainty, my friends are my most precious asset.
-Erynn Miller

A friend is one who knows you adn loves you just the same.
-Elbert Hubbard

An insincere and evil friend is more to be feared than a wild beast; a wild beast may wound your body, but an evil friend will wound your mind.
-Buddha

I Just want to thank Mike and Tegan... I wouldn't be the same without you!
I Love You Guys!! <33

What Is Love??

2004-09-03T19:07:09Z

Love is seeing them like no one else does!

Love is when you know they are not perfect but you see them perfectly!

Love is thinking about them day and night!

Love is when he means the world to you!

Love is when no one else knows how you feel!

Love is the best feeling you can feel!

.:.~X~.:.Dedicated to Tegan and Mike.:.~X~.:.

I hope you guys are together forever!

Real Mature

2004-09-03T17:35:55Z

dude how fucking childish can you get? really what the fuck "oh no i don't like soder even though i hung out with him at the mall and didn't act like i had a problem with him at all but i'm gonna be a complete ass and write about it in my fucking live journal" like yeah ok seriously grow up if you don't like somebody then don't act like your ok with them and hang out with them and then write bullshit about how you dont like then thats the stupidest you could have possibly done about it. And then for you to write that shit tegan do you really think i give two fucks about whether you dislike me or not? or that you don't even know that dislike is all one word you retarded fuck go back to having sex with your uncle you worthless piece of shit i hope you die

~~myke

Real mature Mike... comment on something i worte a while ago real smart... and by the way i never said that i was your friend! I was tolerating you that day because char wanted to go to the mall to hang out with you! You assumed and made yourself look like an Ass! It surprises me you have any friends with that attitude you dickhead! And there was no reason to bring tegan into thiws you worthless fuck... she didnt like you and still doesnt she told you that before so i dont see why you are insulted at the fact that she said that! Well thats all i haev to say to you!

Sammi

2004-08-29T14:00:56Z

Well yesterday my cousin Johnny came down and we went to McDonalds to see Sammi! We stayed till about 1 and helped her close the store! We learned how to change the menus, make a flurry, fill the sauce things, and clean up. It was fun...good learning experience:P!

for_ever_cursed @ 2004-08-28T00:22:00

2004-08-28T04:23:49Z

Well this week has been totally boring...Today I had a mental breakdown and like started crying out of nowhere! It was sooo bad! Monday I went to the mall with Char and we hung out with Mike Soder! Nothing else to write at the moment!

IT'S FUNNY HOW LIES COME OUT AFTER THE FACT... YOU NEVER REALIZE HOW DUMB YOU WERE UNTIL THE REAL TRUTH COMES OUT!!!

^^^Certain People know who this is about^^^

for_ever_cursed @ 2004-08-20T12:02:00

2004-08-20T16:06:26Z

Well Yesterday i went to wildwood with amy... i walked for over 15 hours because she wouldnt sit down then some kid hit on us... eww!! he was ugly! So... anyways i got sunburnt two days in a row... owwieee!

bored... do this

2004-08-17T04:38:34Z

name:
age:
reason for LJ username:
AIM sn:
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do you enjoy reading my LJ:
why?:
interesting fact about you:
weird fact about you:
quote:
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RECOMMEND
1. a movie:
2. a book:
3. a musical artist, song, or album:
4. an LJ user not on my friends list:
5. something to do in the next two months:

Fill It Out!

2004-08-13T15:57:21Z

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for_ever_cursed @ 2004-08-11T09:56:00

2004-08-11T13:57:33Z

Well yesterday was really weird! Me and Tegan talked on the phone for like ever...the first time for 3 hours then the second time from like 8 pm- 3.30 am it was nice! <3333 We sorted out the drama in her life which was good because we got it all figured out yesterday! :) Which is good.

Well im gonna go love ya <333

Fill It Out

2004-08-10T04:26:57Z

What Would You do if..
I cried:
I asked you to help:
I died from natural causes:
I said I liked you:
I kissed you:
I started smoking:
I stole something:
I was hospitalized:
I ran away from home:
I got in a fight and you were there:
I got dumped:
I pissed you off:
I did something that you could never forgive me for:

What Do You Think Of My...
Personality:
Eyes:
Face:
Hair:
Clothes:
Voice:
Humor:
Choice of music:
Mannerisms:
Family:
Friends:
Decisions:

Would You...
Be my friend:
Tell me the truth no matter what:
Lie to make me feel better:
Spread rumors about me:
Keep a secret if I told you one:
Loan me some cash:
Hold my hand:
Take a bullet for me:
Keep in touch:
Try and solve my problems:
Love me:
Want me naked in your bed:

Bored!

2004-08-08T15:13:13Z

Well as usual, I am bored! There is nothing to do! MULLICA SUCKS AND I HATE IT ! Well, I'm not going to go into another rant about Mullica because frankly I don't feel like typing that much. Yesterday, I was helping a few people out... you know advice the usual. If you think about it anyone who can give good advice to other can't figure out the right thing to do for themself so now that must mean that I am monumentally screwed! I can ge other people's lives straightened out but not my own thats fucking ridiculous! Well, no I'm going to go mess with some pics and shit! <333 bubs

Bored!!

2004-08-06T17:22:27Z

Yeah so I have been absolutely and totally bored for 3 days! Nothing to do! Nothing to watch! No one to talk to! God! I hate this! Mullica should have somehwere like a mall or something but no we have to be in the woods! I mean everywhere you look you see trees! Most exciting thing to happen today: THE MAIL CAME! How bad is it when the most exciting part of the day is the mail coming! This is just ridiculous! Well I'm going to Target and the Mall later, maybe I'll get a magazine or a cd to keep me occupied! This morning I talked to Tegan... She is going to Warped Tour<---Lucky Her! It's not like Mullica is a bad place... its just that the nearest store is 15 minutres away, we dont have sidewalks, and the cops almost run you over when you are walking down the street because they are going faster than the speed limit! But hey I'm not complaining! Oh well I figure something out to do! Love ya!

Concert

2004-08-05T04:45:40Z

Yeah so I just got back from the Rush 30th Anniversery Concert a little while ago! It was great they played for over 3 hours. the Drummer was the best I've ever seen! Well I don't have much else to say besides that my feet hurt! I was standing the whole time!

stuff

2004-08-04T21:25:28Z

This is my new Live Journal! Well I'll update more later!