[	And how do you feel about that..?	|	silly	]
[	The voices are talking again...	|	If Looks Could Kill - A Heartwell Ending	]

Well here's an update.  Right now im sitting at the computer while Vanessa plays with my puppy!!!!!!  We're being dorks, but whatelse is new.  Lalalalalalalalalalalalala!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

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And how do you feel about that..?

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amused

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wow... i havent updated this thing in like a year... so here's what happened...

~Got through Freshman year...barely

~Had no social life...

~Had a sucky start to summer...

~Had surgery...made summer even better...

~started sophmore year...

and now...theres not much a difference from last year except more friends...

thats always nice...

Softly The Light Shines In Through
The Gates Of Grace On Me And You
Deceiving Our Restless Hearts
A Flickering Flame So Serene
Devours The Night So We Could See
The Fear We Hold On To So Strong

But I Know Where I Belong
Away From Your Gods
That Heal All Wounds And Light
This Endless Dark
Endless Dark
This Endless Dark

Lonely The Light Shines On You
Through The Gates Of Fire Entombed
Feeding On Your Love
Weak Is The Blaze That Kept Me Away
From Cruelty And Tenderness Embraced
Saving My Soul No More

[	And how do you feel about that..?	|	irritated	]
[	The voices are talking again...	|	Bullet With Butterfly Wings - The Smashing Pumpkins	]

It's nice to know that you are hated...

I KNOW I AM!!!

Even if I don't know why... if you do, please tell me!

[	And how do you feel about that..?	|	hot	]
[	The voices are talking again...	|	Radio	]

Happy Birthday To Pam She Is Finally 14!!!

You know I find it funny how you can 'accidentally' forget to add someone on to something! Also the fact at how quick your emotions can change!

[	And how do you feel about that..?	|	confused	]
[	The voices are talking again...	|	The sounds of pages turning and typing	]

If you know me... and are reading this I have a question for you...

WHY ARE YOU FRIENDS WITH ME WHEN KNOWING THE REAL ME HAS SOO MUCH BAGGAGE ATTACHED?

I am just curious please give me a good reason!

[	And how do you feel about that..?	|	thoughtful	]
[	The voices are talking again...	|	Welcome to My Life - Simple Plan	]

Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don’t belong
And no one understands you

          Do you ever wanna run away?
          Do you lock yourself in your room?
          With the radio on turned up so loud
          That no one hears you screaming

No you don’t know what it’s like
When nothing feels alright
You don’t know what it’s like to be like me

          To be hurt
          To feel lost
          To be left out in the dark
          To be kicked
          When you’re down
          To feel like you’ve been pushed around
          To be on the edge of breaking down
          When no one’s there to save you
          No you don’t know what it’s like

Welcome to my life

          Do you wanna be somebody else?
          Are you sick of feeling so left out?
          Are you desperate to find something more
          Before your life is over

Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With the big fake smiles and stupid lies
But deep inside you’re bleeding

          No you don’t know what it’s like
          When nothing feels alright
          You don’t know what it’s like to be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked
When you’re down
To feel like you’ve been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
When no one’s there to save you
No you don’t know what it’s like

         Welcome to my life

No one ever lies straight to your face
And no one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I’m happy
But I’m not gonna be ok

         Everybody always gave you what you wanted
         You never had to work it was always there
         You don’t know what it’s like
         What it’s like

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked
When you’re down
To feel like you’ve been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
When no one’s there to save you
No you don’t know what it’s like

          To be hurt
          To feel lost
          To be left out in the dark
          To be kicked
          When you’re down
          To feel like you’ve been pushed around
          To be on the edge of breaking down
          When no one’s there to save you
          No you don’t know what it’s like

Welcome to my life

          Welcome to my life

Welcome to my life

This Song Is Great... It kinda Explains How I Feel... Most of the Time... I Do Have Good Days... Thanks To Those People Who Help Me Through

Im Bored out of my mind so I decided to update...I finally have a bus in the mroning! yay! School is good, but I'm bored all the time, which sucks! Well anyways nothing much else to say.

[	And how do you feel about that..?	|	lethargic	]
[	The voices are talking again...	|	So Cold - Breaking Benjamin	]

Well, I'm sitting at home... im supposed to be on the bus but both of the companys bidding at oakcrest decided to abandon our morning route! So, we either get driven to school or stay home. Anyways Im really sleepy and dont feel like going to school today or at all but i have to. Today me and my dad are taking tegan to school when she gets her ass over here.

Well since im bored let me tell you about this weekend! {i was at chars all weekend}

Friday- went to the mall, so she could see mike s.

Saturday- did the buddy walk, watched grind, and went to the mall again, saw ANGEL!! {me and char were bored so we counted how many people our age were at the mall that vanessa didnt do anything with, there was 5}

Sunday- we slept for over 16 hours then i went home on the computer

Tegan is a turtle skank!!! yay!!

TeganXcore: skankn turtle power! woot woot!

[	And how do you feel about that..?	|	blah	]
[	The voices are talking again...	|	None... playstation... Harry Potter... My sister is playing	]

Love is seeing them like no one else does!

Love is when you know they are not perfect but you see them perfectly!

Love is thinking about them day and night!

Love is when he means the world to you!

Love is when no one else knows how you feel!

Love is the best feeling you can feel!

.:.~X~.:.Dedicated to Tegan and Mike.:.~X~.:.

I hope you guys are together forever!

[	And how do you feel about that..?	|	pissed off	]
[	The voices are talking again...	|	Hold On - Good Charlotte	]

dude how fucking childish can you get? really what the fuck "oh no i don't like soder even though i hung out with him at the mall and didn't act like i had a problem with him at all but i'm gonna be a complete ass and write about it in my fucking live journal" like yeah ok seriously grow up if you don't like somebody then don't act like your ok with them and hang out with them and then write bullshit about how you dont like then thats the stupidest you could have possibly done about it. And then for you to write that shit tegan do you really think i give two fucks about whether you dislike me or not? or that you don't even know that dislike is all one word you retarded fuck go back to having sex with your uncle you worthless piece of shit i hope you die

~~myke

Real mature Mike... comment on something i worte a while ago real smart... and by the way i never said that i was your friend! I was tolerating you that day because char wanted to go to the mall to hang out with you! You assumed and made yourself look like an Ass! It surprises me you have any friends with that attitude you dickhead! And there was no reason to bring tegan into thiws you worthless fuck... she didnt like you and still doesnt she told you that before so i dont see why you are insulted at the fact that she said that! Well thats all i haev to say to you!

[	And how do you feel about that..?	|	frustrated	]
[	The voices are talking again...	|	Screaming Infidelities - Dashboard Confessional	]

Well this week has been totally boring...Today I had a mental breakdown and like started crying out of nowhere! It was sooo bad! Monday I went to the mall with Char and we hung out with Mike Soder! Nothing else to write at the moment!

IT'S FUNNY HOW LIES COME OUT AFTER THE FACT... YOU NEVER REALIZE HOW DUMB YOU WERE UNTIL THE REAL TRUTH COMES OUT!!!

^^^Certain People know who this is about^^^

[	And how do you feel about that..?	|	cranky	]
[	The voices are talking again...	|	Don't Worry, Be Happy	]

Well yesterday was really weird! Me and Tegan talked on the phone for like ever...the first time for 3 hours then the second time from like 8 pm- 3.30 am it was nice! <3333 We sorted out the drama in her life which was good because we got it all figured out yesterday! :) Which is good.

Well im gonna go love ya <333